Brendan,
it didn't have to be this way. There were a million more options than to go and do this. I'm so sorry that we didn't know. I'm so sorry that you couldn't tell anyone and that this seemed to be the best option. There was a million things I wish I would have told you the last time I saw you.
I love you, you were unforgetable.
I got my lip pierced today. so we match now. see? You're one of the only people i would have done this for, i hope you know.

I make sure my room always smells like "meadows & rain" febreze, cause it makes me think of you and how much you just adored this stuff. I don't think anyone in the world loved the smell of this stuff more then you. I remember meeting you and remember how much you cheered me up on my birthday. I took pictures of your birthday robot, and birthday pancakes and birthday presents.

God those drawings made me so happy and so not lonely. I wish I could have done that for you! I wish I would have just fucking called you on Thursday and told you about our party friday. I feel like an ass for forgetting. Just keep thinking if someone had called you that night you wouldnt have done it.
I just keep picturing you there by yourself Brendan. Fuck! I wish I had never known how you did it either. I'm so sad whenever I think of it. It breaks my heart.
You spent your whole life making EVERYONE smile and laugh Brendan. You were so hard to hate. And when anyone did dislike you, you just cracked them up.
I wish you would have told someone Brendan
Everyone misses you. I wish you could see the way it tore us all apart, how many people care. how many people are going to your funeral. I wish you could just see.
Brendan. I love you. I miss you. I hope I see you again one day.

RIP Brendan Archibald 10.13.2006